A Monologue based on conversations with a patient. Previously performed at university for Stress Management component.
The doctor tell me I not pregnant. (Ha!)
But look at me!
My belly big and growing everyday
My two breasts sore and full.
So, what he mean, I not pregnant?
Ah mean, is true the pregnancy test
really come back negative.
And de ultrasound say it eh have no chile!
But ah woman mus know what goin on in she body.
Three drop ah urine, can’t tell nothing ’bout me.
And what he mean dis is stress related?
You ever see stress get anybody pregnant?
Well, yes, is true ah still grieving de chile
ah lost two years ago.
And is true ah dis still get up to feed de baby
when ah hear him crying.
Buh wha wrong wid dat?
Everybody dis try to hold on to whatever dey loss.
Even when people foot get cut off
dey dis still feel pain in dat foot!
Dey call it phantom pain.
But dis eh no phantom baby
I have here, yuh know!
Look at my belly!
You ever see ah phantom baby move?
O’ ah phantom baby grow?
I mus’ know what happ’ning in me.
So, yuh see dat doctor
and all he degree?
Just keep dem away from me
and my baby!
Subjectivity is an inner truth based on individual beliefs and experience. Though not absolute, it is still a reality.